When I wrote this originally, I really felt it would be hard to leave my "friends". But as many have pointed out, THEY are the ones leaving us.
00DAD, you are right, if it is conditional, it ain't love!
The strange part is that so far, despite my inactivity, no one (or perhaps, I haven't noticed) has cut me off. I have shared my feelings with several close "friends", which I know is not always a good idea. But generally, I have always been well liked by everyone, so maybe that's why they haven't pulled the cord?
However, as time has progressed, I see that no matter how you look at it, around any JW's, you are always going to have to pretend in some way. Is that what real friendship is? I don't think so.
And so I am working on forming relationships outside of the org. It's coming along well, except for..... the still-believing-wife part. Oh well.
Thanks for all the new comments.
CoC